well it seems to be a reoccurring theme in my life that the first month of the year has lots and lots of trials in store for me haha! i think the Lord is just always getting me ready for great things in store for me throughout the year. well this last week was super hard but at the same time SUPER AWESOME. it was really difficult to deal with some emotional things, but i am super grateful for the trials that the Lord has given me to be able to grow closer to Him than ever before. i have realized some really important things. in John 12:24-25 it talks a little bit about true conversion.